Assalamu'alaikum and Hi to all,
it is 9 am in the morning. my baby is still sleeping soundly. the boy was crying a lot yesterday afternoon. approaching the night however, he acted a bit differently as he was not crying as much. possibly it was due my own decision not to give much attention as i would normally do everyday. i literally moved away from him and not 'wanting' him to come near me. he definitely saw the change in the way i treated him and began 'staying away' from me too. even there was a moment that he cried a little bit showing the something caught under his right foot but there i was acted up not having a single care of his conditions. in the end, my baby walked to me and pleaded to me to do something about his foot. i felt hurt inside even more, yet i stayed with my act. i cleaned his foot and continued watching television as if he was not even there.
i know this is cruel. i feel hurt inside knowing that my action by not giving him the attention he is craving normally has made him change his ways and ended up leaving him all by himself. it is not a good feeling at all. i watched him from the side, seeing him playing alone and i know he knows i have 'changed'.
but i am doing this for the sake of trying to change his ways in expressing himself through loud crying and tantrums. i see some immediate changes in him and i hope these changes are for the better. i will certainly NOT going to leave unattended and uncared for. i will get close to him more when i see it is appropriate for me to do so.
may ALLAH always bless me in my efforts. may ALLAH always help me in my efforts. only HE is the one true creator of all and only HE can give definite answers.
InsyaALLAH, till next time, wassalam.
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